I think I'm getting fucking sick....my throat hurts.....Damn it.....Fuck Fuck Fuck....!!!!

Subway has new bread. 4 new kinds, the only thing is...it's stale by the time u get it because nobody orders the new bread. So come on.....order the new bread.

It's funny how things can go so wrong, so soon. I woke up late today, about 12:45. Dyana called and woke me up. It was nice to be woken up by my girlfriend. I got up and took a shower and got dressed. I wrote Dyana a E-mail at work then we wrote back and forth for a few minutes. Then I tried to call her, but I got her voicemail..She called back a few moments later. I was kinda pissed because I accidently erased my Rate my picture account. I was trying to find out what I had done. She was a bit pissed because her computer just crashed, and she was hungry because the food delivery person screwed wasn't there after an hour. I really wasn't talking and she got upset because I was distracted. I'd give anything for it to all go away.

Things are going extremely well for me lately. Work is going good, I couldn't ask for a more perfectly suited job for me. My only worry is job security, until april of next year when I will be moving onward...hopefully. I have been dating Dyana for nearly 2 weeks now. She seems perfect in alot of ways. She is sweet, smart, cute, intelligent, caring, and most of all likes me back. She has a 3 year old son named Alan. To be totally honest I'm still not quite sure about the child thing, but he is a awesome kid. Anyways we are just dating now so, it really shouldn't matter..... right? Anyways...I am in the market for a new car. I have my eye on a Dodge Intrepid. I'm not sure why, I think it might be too big of a car, and I've been told it's a family car, but I still want it. This is where the job security fits in. If I get payments on a car, I don't want to lose my job...and get it repo'd. I don't think this will be much of a problem though. I can afford $300 a month payments easy, I save that much a month in my savings...and I spend like crazy...so the only questions are job security and financing....So I must clarify these two parameters before proceding. Wish me luck..

I've been lazy, but that's okay. I've moved into my new house a few days ago. It's a nice house. I really don't like the pink carpet, but hey it has a roof and air conditioning so it's all good. My room is a mess, clothes are everywhere. I have to get ready for work soon. The Roadrunner guy was here earlier, installing my cable modem. He left a wire across my front yard. He said a technician would be out on tuesday to run it through the attic. I can't wait...I keep tripping over it. I'll be taking some pictures soon of the new house and updating the Miscellania pic page accordingly, so stay tuned...till then I'm out.....peace..

Okay...being sick just sucks. I haven't been doing much of anything lately. Eating alot and keeping full of fluids. Shut up Jeff.... Dayquil still sucks. .... The house is supposed to close on monday, but who knows what will happen. I'm still staying in the hotel on the beach. I try to stay away from there as much as possible. I really hate that place. I bought a few new shirts the other day, because I have no clean laundry. Life sucks what can I say. I am tired of typing now, so I'll catch u later.

I AM SICK. and I am at work..I wanna go home. It's a chest cold, and my throat is a bit sore. Dayquil sucks... I think I would like to be in my bed and drinking tea..and eating soup. I hate being sick even more than moving. The worst part is having a bed in a hotel room, it's not like home. What is it about me, I mean little innocent me that is so attractive to a damn Virus. The virus is going to lose, why even try. Stupid virus...It's fighting a war, and for what? To lose. It's going to accomplish nothing..except making me miserable and killing itself. So I ask you virus. what's the point?

I met the most interesting person yesterday, or rather early this morning. I met her online, as with most of my recent new friends. I guess she is what you could call a freak, but I mean that in the most respect. I wish I could be a freak, but my life won't let me. I respect her for that. Her name is Gavis, really her name is Lindsey. We went to Denny's last night.What else is there to do on a sunday night after midnight? We ate she had buffalo chicken strips, I had french toast. The we left to the parking lot where we sat on her sticker covered car till about 5 A.M. We talked about all sorts of things but she never lost my attention. She is the most interesting person I believe I have ever met. I put a picture of her in the friends section of my photo area.

So there I was kneedeep in K-mart, when I decided okay I gota get outta here before I put more stuff in my cart. I headed to the front of the store. That's when I saw it. The legendary express lane. It only had one person in it.... I pushed my cart full speed and made it right in time. I waited for a few minutes. Then I looked up to see the guy in front of me had a whole cart full of clearanced clothes. His oriental wife was piling them up on the counter. I counted 43 pieces before I gave up..Now I was highly pissed. I had begun to imagine myself bashing this fucker in the ankle with my cart. This fucking pissed me off, but I never was the violent type. So I just stood there and waited. The cashier was incredibly slow and stupid too. I could feel the pressure cooker boiling inside me.......I was waiting to explode. Then the prick turns around and smiles. I wanted just to deck him in his old gay ass nose. I made the remark "Can't count today? huh" He just laughed and turned around. Now at about this time I wanted to take my box of Triscuits and bash him in the head repeatedly. I wanted just to push him out of the express lane with my cart....Ughhhh... It was over shortly after he paid and then just fucking stood there. What now? His bitch wife was checking the reciept...I could take it no longer..I pushed in front of him and threw my 5 things on the counter...The cashier smiled and rang me up. The guy behind me mumbled something about inconsiderate young kids...I turned around and smiled...Then I payed and pushed my way past him. I could hear him mubling in the background...but I didn't care.... On the way out I had happy thought sof running him down in the parking lot...happy happy thoughts..

I awoke in my sleep last night to find myself in a room abask in a blue haze. I got up from my bed and walk to where I thought the door should be, but there was no door. I turned to see a light behind me. I walked toward the light. It seemed far of in the distance. As I walked toward the light it changed colors from blue to a pale yellow color. Then I realized that I might be dead. I stopped almost in my tracks. Thoughts of "At least I'm not in hell" went through my head. I suppose this is a bit strange for you to understand, but for me it was even tougher. I thought "I don't wanna be dead." I turned away from the light and ran in the opposite direction. I was now screaming into the silence and pleading to god "I don't wanna be dead". Then the floor of this space dropped out, and I was falling into the darkness. With a splash I landed upon the shore of a peaceful beach. I laughed thinking I had escaped heaven and had been returned back to earth. I sat there in the sand breathing the salty air deep into my lungs. I looked out across the water, when I saw the ship coming I stood up, and waved. "Hey..I'm over here...save me..." The boat turned. It was an older sail boat. One from the classical times, it was made of wood and had a tall white mast with sails that were more beautiful than anything I had ever seen. I waded out into the water to meet it. I t was getting closer. I could see it's sailors waving and one climbing up the mast to the nest above. They did not make a sound, the only sound was me screaming at the top of my lungs. "I'm saved.." and I thought I had been. It was now just within distance to see.. I was horrified at it's inhabitants. They were mear skeletons dressed in pirate uniforms. I screamed louder now. They were throughing things at me. And then came the net. It was heavy and held my head under the water. I was gasping for air. I closed my eyes and let the air from my lungs escape...up in bubbles my life and air trickled from my body. I was now lifeless and remained floating in the water as my body was hauled above the ship by the skeleton pirates. I was being dispersed by the waves and fading away. I was being absorbed by the water, slowly I trickeled away into nothingness.

I stayed the night in a hotel down on Mad. beach. It is one of those high priced touristy places. I woke up early this morning with a chill in the air. It seems I left the A.C. on. I got up and shut it off. There was a knock at the door. I walked over to the door with my blanket wrapped around my neck kind of like a cloak. The door opened up to reveal the hotel maid. I could see by the tag on her chest her name was June. That's my birthday, it must be my lucky day. She asked if I needed a change of sheets, I shook my head and she came in. I turned to the refrigerator and slowly walked over too it. I opened it to reveal a bareness like the sahara. The maid giggled, as I turned around to ask why she giggled. She just laughed and looked back towards the bed. I sat down at the table as she changed the sheets. She turned toward me and said "We have a free complimentary breakfast in the lobby". I shook my head in an up and down motion and she giggled again. She left soon after, I decide it was about time to get in the shower. I looked around my room for a toothbrush. I found one on the bathroom sink. One of those cheap hotel room toothbrushes. I sneared at it then brushed my teeth religiously. I was about finished when I heard another knock on the door. I grabbed a towel off the rack and wrapped it around me. I walked toward the door and opened it a little. It was June the maid again. She had her arms full and pushed her way in the door. She set down upon the table more food than I myself could eat for breakfast in five days. I said thank you. She just giggled and sat down. I went back to the bathroom and put on my jeans from the night before. I came back out and sat across from her. I said "Wow, this is really great thank you. Is this going to get you in trouble?" She looked up and said "No, it's my break." I ate till I was full, and then I ate some more. When I was finished I said thank you again. She smiled and said "No problem, I was hungry too.... I didn't want too eat in the cafeteria again." I told her to leave the dishes and I would bring them down when I was leaving for the day. It was the least I could do. I walked her over to the door, and said goodbye. I watched her walk down the hall. She got down to the stairway and turned around to see me staring.. She smiled and waved and was then gone...

I've been here most of the day. I don't know why. Can u tell me?